I’ve been in a bit of a down mood recently, as is probably evident after my post yesterday. I’ve lacked motivation and drive to do much of anything. Can you tell that it’s busy season at work and I’ve worked an extra 5.5 hours this week that I won’t be paid for?
They say that life consists of one choice after another, literally everything that you do is a choice. Well, I’m at the point where I feel like every little choice that I make is wrong. Now I realise that sounds incredibly dramatic (because it is) but let me just explain!
Every time I converse with someone at work I get foot in mouth syndrome. I say shit That I know I should never have said, however, I only realise this fact a split second after the words leave my mouth. This leads to major facepalm moments for me as well as creating many cringe-y memories that keep me up at night .
So many days I get home from work and just wish for a life do-over. Not in a suicidal type of way, just in a ‘damn I wish I was a sim and I could just recreate myself and make different choices’ kind of way. But unfortunately, that’s just not how the world works and that is part of the reason why they say that life isn’t fair.
I’ve only been at my job since the beginning of September and I’m still in a training phase (as I will be for 3 years *cry*), but I’m quickly realising that it might not be for me. It’s a tough reality to face when you suddenly think that what you’ve worked so hard for at university may not have been worth it at all.
Does anyone know any hobbies that can be taken up by an entirely talentless individual? I definitely think that I need something to do with my time other than working and watching YouTube videos because ya gal hasn’t really got any friends. Yes, I know, what a surprise! Lol.
I hope everyone has had a lovely day today and I’m sorry to vent. Until next time!
– Michelle xx